Selasa, 13 September 2011

The Perks of Being A Wallflower

The Perks of Being a Wallflower
Stephen Chbosky
Pocket Books, Simon and Schuster Inc.
1999



Pertama kali tertarik sama novel ini gara-gara baca quote di salah satu sigi alias signature seseorang di suatu forum. It goes like this:
"And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."  -Charlie, The Perks of Being a Wallflower-

 Wallflower:
 -- One who does not participate in the activity at a social event because of shyness or unpopularity (thefreedictionary.com)
-- someone, usually in high school, who sees everything, knows everything, but does not say a word. they are not loners. they are introvertive, meaning they are shy and have a social disease. they cannot handle having someone pay attention to them even though they crave it as much as everyone else. wallflowers are just phased in, and faded into the backround. (urbandictionary.com)

Charlie bukan anak yang menonjol dan cenderung tertutup. Teman baiknya satu-satunya mati bunuh diri ketika tahun ajaran baru akan dimulai dan membuatnya harus berhubungan dengan psikolog. Ia kemudian menemukan dirinya seolah berada dalam dunia yang baru. Dunia dimana orang-orang mulai menerimanya.

Charlie, mungkin nama sebenarnya mungkin juga bukan, tapi ia ingin dipanggil seperti itu. Melalui suratnya ia menceritakan kehidupannya, sekolah, keluarga, pertemanan. Bagaimana ia menemukan hal-hal baru dalam dunianya seperti drugs, homoseksual, musik bagus,cinta pertama, dan merasa "tanpa batas".
When we got out of the tunnel, Sam screamed this really fun scream, and there it was. Downtown. Lights on buildings and everything that makes you wonder. Sam sat down and started laughing. Patrick started laughing. I started laughing. And in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
Stephen Chbosky menghadirkan sosok Charlie dengan segala ketidaksempurnaanya namun sangat nyata. Sosok Charlie yang tertutup di awal cerita bersama dengan Craig dan Sam, sahabat barunya, sedikit demi sedikit mulai membuka diri dan berani untuk "berpartisipasi" dengan dunia di sekitarnya daripada hanya sekedar melihatnya berlalu begitu saja.
I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist. 
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.
          -Charlie- 
Hingga akhir buku kita mungkin tak akan pernah tahu siapa Charlie sebenarnya atau siapa penerima surat itu, siapa orang-orang dalam suratnya. Tetapi di suatu waktu dalam hidup kita, kita pernah menjadi Charlie. Semangat akan hal baru, bingung bagaimana cara melaluinya, suatu masa saat sisi innocent dalam diri kita mulai menghilang. Masa menjadi remaja.

Enjoy reading, guys!

PS: Oh iya, buku ini sedikit mengingatkan saya dengan film Mary and Max dengan "the perfect stranger makes the best friend" nya. And I love that.

Kamis, 30 Juni 2011

Broken hearted-genic

I hate it when my heart's broken. DU-H! Who's not? But, I like it too. Because when my heart's broken, suddenly I felt like everything is gone and I'm the only one in this world. Very quite. Very calm. Just me and my heart.

And at that time, I became a very creative person. So many ideas, energy, came to me. Broken hearted is sad, but I only can heal it with writing. So I keep writing, and writing, and writing. And when my heart finally healed, the world, as if I never notice it before, seems so beautiful. Bleh,it might sounds cheesy but it is what I felt.

Call me masochist, sometimes I miss those moments,the last moment to be exact. I miss writing actually..sigh.

                                                                                 pic: i just googled it,sorry.
                                               just that plester won't heal it, haha.

I hate when my heart's broken, but I love how it feels when it healed.







                                                                                                   

Rabu, 29 Juni 2011

Have you enjoyed this short life?

You humans are such foolish creatures. I mean, your lives are so…short yet you spend the majority of your time doing things that you don’t want to do. Going to school when you’d rather travel the world, working at jobs you hate, dealing with people you dislike and chaining yourselves to lives you detest instead of giving yourselves the freedom to enjoy what’s left of your fleeting lives before the end comes.
~ Eclipse, An Eternity of Eclipse

And that makes me wonder, have I enjoyed my time? Have you?


credit: as tagged
Tandem skydiving, this is what I called enjoying life...
One of many things I have to do before I die.

Selasa, 28 Juni 2011

Back to Basic

Abis jalan-jalan liat blog teman..(hihi, mengejutkan!), saya jadi mikir, rasanya saya lupa buat apa saya pertama kali bikin blog ini. 
Saya bikin blog ini buat nulis, nulis buat diri saya sendiri lebih tepatnya. Saya lupa itu.
Hihi, saya lupa betapa asyiknya nulis, sampe menelantarkan blog ini...
Janji deh, setelah ini mau sependek apapun tulisan saya, saya mau tulis langsung di blog ini.
Yang penting saya puas sama tulisan saya dan saya senang.
Anggap saja ini second come back saya (caelaaaahhh...). Dan saya ga peduli mau nulis pake gue kek, aku kek, saya kek, atau bahasa inggris yang ancur lebur, yang penting nulis! Kalo ada emoticon yang bisa mewakili perasaan saya saat ini adalah gambar orang pake ikat kepala ala jepang, mata berapi-api, mengepalkan tangan dengan gambar api atau ombak memecah karang di latar belakang. Sadiiiiissss...

Udah dulu deh, kebiasaan jelek saya nih adalah kalo udah nulis kepanjangan suka keluar jalur, bleber-bleber.  ciao~

Minggu, 26 Juni 2011

Reflek itu semacam kebodohan in disguise?

Gegara iklan permen starburst,tiap denger lagunya so7 yang sahabat sejati,otak reflek nyanyi 'sahabat sejatiku,permen starburst kesukaanku~'

Gegara acara Asal,tiap denger kata 'apa motivasi kamu ...' otak reflek nyambungin jadi 'apa motivasi kamu ikut Asal?' dan berbagai macam jawaban semacam 'karna saya pengen bgt ktmu artis x', 'krna kata org2 saya mirip bgt artis x' juga refleks melintas di otak.

Dan gegara kamu, tiap denger kata cinta, aku reflek pegang jantung. Takut ini terbang dan jatuh,hancur berkeping. Lagi.

Minggu, 30 Januari 2011

Standing Egg, Clover and a Date!



Jadi ya... saya jatuh cinta.
Lagi.
YA. sama lagu.
the MV is so sweeeeettt. even though I don't understand the lyrics (trust me I already googled it, but I got nothing!) but you can feel the sincere and sweetness in his voice. Ukulele, colorfull baloons, amusement park, sunny day, cute boy, a date, ah..I'm melted! bahaha...

 어느 파도, Eoneu pado, some waves. hmm...

oh the singer is Clover, member of standing egg, a band from korea. their song is great too. you should check this one..  


welcome to korea indie band! hehehe

Jumat, 03 Desember 2010

new motto?

u know, i got new motto for my life i mean just for my situation now.  here it is:
Search, Apply, Get Hired
yes! that's my new vini, vidi, vici!


i'm playing hide and seek now,  oh job, joooobb... come out come out where ever you are. 

oh, tomorrow i'll go to bandung. to take the japanese test, and i haven't read anything, at all. what will be will be. that's my another motto!hahaha...wish me luck :)